It's New Years Eve

Oh my how the time has gone by, I have missed a few days on here, and thinking about of this past year really brings me to tears.
We had a rough year, but what year hasnt been tough on us. Since the passing of Will's dad it seams that our years have just floated by, we do have things to remember, but it's been a hard 6 years. I cant believe that it will be 7 years in march since he has passed way. Honestly I dont think it was fair to my son to take his best friend away, him and Kieron has such a bond, it was so special. I Kieron misses him, late at night when we talk he talks about his potter.

So its new years eve and we are suppose to make resolution, but I, I have decided not too. I only say that because I cant stand the dissappointment i have when I break them, so this year there will be none. I have decided instead to plan our month out, including scheduling more family time. Oh it has been great taking the kids out at night sledding with them and pulling them in them in the sledds, I want to do more things like this. In fact it might be good for me, I might actually loss some weight, oh what a concept.

We are making plans for tongiht, we are going to take the kids down to the bowling alley, have pizza bowl a few games. Come home watch a movie, wathc the ball drop, toast and go to bed. When did we get so old, that we can't stay out and party anymore. Oh the times. Well its all about family now.

Kelby is just like a wild man turned loss, he has made some many messes these past couple of days. Oh he goes full speed all the time, he even goes in his sleep. He got the chocolate syrup down and poured it all over, he got the dip down and dropped it all over, he dump chips and crackers all over. Let not mention the bottle of waters he has poured out or broken.

Rylee the little dear, she is a superstar when it comes to that Wii I tell you, she is kicking everyone's but, she got the high score in bowling of 198, she is great at. She can even beat me and her dad. She diffenetly rocks the Wii.

Aubree well lets just say that we really need to get back on schudele with her, she is a basket case, cranky, unhappy, and just plan mean. I'm looking forward to school starting again so that bedtime comes back, and she get her sleep.

Well I want to wish everyone a happy new year. I know no one reads this, but it really does help to get out everything that is going on in my head. Chandra dear, your dad, what guy. I'm sorry for what you are going through, you and Brian dont deserve this, but make your choice and stick with it, dont second guess it. Only you and Brian know what best at this point. God never gives us more that what we can handle, trust in him, he will give you guidance.

To anyone else that is going through trying times, remember you are never higher than when you are on your knees. Let God guide you and show you the way.

Oh my dear family, know that you all hold a special place in my heart, my children, I love you more than words can say. Will, I know at times we don't see thing the same way, but know that I love you, and I'm glad that we found each other. Mom and Dad, you are the best, I love you both, thank you for everything that you do for us and the family, know that you both are my heros, and my goal is to be just has giving and forgiving as you both are.
Lynette and Alexius, all though we are miles apart, you are never closer than a phone call away. I only wish that we can be closer physically, I want to be in Kansas with my family so bad, if I could move I would do it in a minute. I want to be closer to my family, that is my one desire most. If only I could convince Will of this.
Cris what can say brother, you bring us such Joy with your video messenging, my kids love it. Thanks big guy I love you. Know that I love you more than words can say.
I miss you all, until we see each other again. God Bless

Well I think that I have teared enough, live is tough, and I must go on. I will continue to wish I was in Kansas.
May everyone have a great and properious new year.